Sunday, February 6, 2011

Consciousness Cleanse: DAY 3 - THE GIFT OF RELEASE (Pt. 2)

To begin "part 2", it's time to begin the Cleansing Ritual. This is going to be fun. The first thing I am supposed to do is take some time to reflect on what has interrupted and corrupted my pure and natural state.... what is, right here and now, acting like a toxic spill within the pristine environment of my conscious heart. Well... that's easy. I was in a pretty good place mentally and emotionally, today. Work was smooth, the weather was decent (which means no snow and we are out of the arctic cold temperatures of earlier in the week), management was tolerable (if not even pleasant) and it was Saturday (which is the same as Friday, for the rest of you). All was well until I received a series of animated, almost accusatory texts from a family member. When I suggested that we (this family member and I) speak on the phone, we did, and it promptly erupted into a one-sided yelling match, complete with some hurtful things being said. I was probably guilty of saying something hurtful, even though it wasn't intended to be hurtful. Words directed at me were most definitely hurtful, yet I remained calm. However, the peace and solace that I was feeling earlier in the day was disrupted and I never did completely find it again. I might add that I did feel proud of myself that I did not lose my temper during any of the unpleasant exchanges. This is a big step for me, as in years past I would have completely lost my temper.

The second step in the cleansing rituals is to reflect on the toxicity that I have carried around in my life, and rate it (on a scale of 1-10) on how it has effected my flow of well-being, in addition to stealing the vitality from me in the following core areas. The number one would translate as "not much", with the number 10 translating as "more than I can calculate". Let's have some fun, shall we?

  • My self-esteem: 2
  • My confidence: 3
  • My physical energy: 3
  • My creativity: 3
  • My passion: 5
  • My intuition: 2
  • My future: 1
  • My sense of peace: 3
  • My ability to love: 3
  • My ability to be loved: 1

Next, I am to remember that "the truth will set me free", so I need to take time to admit what is STILL poisoning my consciousness at this point in my life. Hmmmm... good question. I think of all the things that plagued me as a child, most of them are irrelevant, at this point in my life. Acne, being picked last to play sports, a chipped tooth, and a plethora of other things that left me feeling insecure, have not impacted me greatly at this point in my life. Yes, I am still insecure about some things... certain aspects of my appearance, my ability to be a nurturing father, other "personal" things... but, I usually try and remind myself of the positive things that I do, and the positive aspects of my personality. I tend to look at life from a healthy perspective. However, that being said, the events of this evening have taken me a few steps back in the overall road to healing and complete inner peace. Such is life. Every time we take 2 steps forward, we may be forced to take a step back. What matters is how we deal with those trials. I try to keep plodding forward, despite the setbacks.

SOUL FOOD
I am released from the bondage of my past.




THE 21-DAY CONSCIOUSNESS CLEANSE

What is the condition of your flame right now? After a brief setback with tonight's events, my flame is burning brighter... thanks to caring people, good music and a peaceful environment.

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On a scale of 1-10, where would you rate it? 6



Where would you like it to be at the end of the day? Considering I am composing this at the end of my day, I would like to see it burn at a 7.


What is your intention of the day? What intention can you create to strengthen and fuel your flame? By simply focusing on "the now". This is my greatest asset with today's challenges. The past has nothing to offer and the future is not a certainty.


What is the primary feeling you want to generate from your intention? Confidence and peace.




What will you need to do to insure that your intention becomes a reality? Take a step back from the chaos and drama and remember that I am in control of my destiny. My happiness is determined by only one person....... ME.


What will you have to give up - a thought, belief or behavior - to ensure that you fulfill your intention for today? I must give up the behavior of ego. I must not take a stance thinking that "I am right", and remember that any potential pain is really based on my outlook of the circumstances I find myself in.


What healing mantra - what sentence or phrase - can you repeat to yourself throughout the day to soothe your soul and manifest your intention? I really liked the Soul Food for the day. "I am released from the bondage of my past."


How many times throughout the day do you need to hear this? Maybe just once a day... maybe more. We'll see.


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