Anyhow, today we had the displeasure of an upper management person visiting our office, where our management was pacing back and forth as if they were the Gestapo of the Third Reich. Intimidation was their sole purpose. Between those mind games and the fact that they completely changed our normal protocol to make themselves look better, I was livid. Immediately I was forced to take deep breaths and say to myself, "Lose my temper, lose my life". I was fighting feelings of anger for the next two hours, as I prepared my route for the day's deliveries. Once I made it "to the street", all was well. Throughout the rest of the day, I practiced my usual exercises to maintain some sense of inner peace. It worked... for the most part. Let's just say that my language dramatically improved once I was not in the negative work environment of the office.
Day 2- THE GIFT OF SELF-AWARENESS
For the next 24 hours, my focus will be on that of "self-awareness". During this period of the cleanse, I will turn my attention to that which is secretly (or maybe not so secretly) robbing me of my soul's desires. or standing in the way of my fulfilling them. During this time, I am supposed to work through the process of un-concealing and embracing any unprocessed shame, guilt, hurt and remorse. It is only through releasing the past that we are able to open ourselves up to a new, inspiring future. During this time, I am expected to reflect on any of these past actions as in impartial observer. I need to be AWARE of my behavior, but not overly identified with it.
To do this, I need to dig deeply into the past and acknowledge the things that I wish I had never said or done, and to admit to the choices I've made or failed to make that robbed me of happiness and self-respect. It is only by acknowledging these behaviors that we are not proud of, that we can purge them from our consciousness, creating room inside our consciousness, enabling us to reach our greatest potential.
To do this, I need to dig deeply into the past and acknowledge the things that I wish I had never said or done, and to admit to the choices I've made or failed to make that robbed me of happiness and self-respect. It is only by acknowledging these behaviors that we are not proud of, that we can purge them from our consciousness, creating room inside our consciousness, enabling us to reach our greatest potential.
CLEANSING RITUAL
Today, I must take an honest inventory... a "searching and fearless" inventory (as stated in many 12-step programs) and NOT a bitter and blaming one... of all the undigested experiences that are still creating toxicity within my mind and body.
At this point, I am to create a journal, answering a few thought provoking questions.
At this point, I am to create a journal, answering a few thought provoking questions.
- What do I wish I had never done?
- What do I wish I could forget?
- What do I wish I could do differently?
- What behaviors have I participated in that intentionally or unintentionally brought harm to others?
I must also make a list of everything that has gone wrong in my life that I have taken too personally.
In addition to this, I must answer these questions:
The most interesting thing is that once I answer these questions, exposing many of the things that I have been dragging around for many years, I am instructed to do NOTHING about them. The very act of getting this "inner residue" outside of me and onto paper will have a transformative power of its own.
The final step is to write down what would be available to me if I allowed ALL of my human behaviors, thoughts, feelings and experiences to live outside of myself... a short distance from me... from now on.
In addition to this, I must answer these questions:
- How have I punished myself?
- What do I do to beat myself up?
- What are all the reasons I believe I hold on to them?
The most interesting thing is that once I answer these questions, exposing many of the things that I have been dragging around for many years, I am instructed to do NOTHING about them. The very act of getting this "inner residue" outside of me and onto paper will have a transformative power of its own.
The final step is to write down what would be available to me if I allowed ALL of my human behaviors, thoughts, feelings and experiences to live outside of myself... a short distance from me... from now on.
SOUL FOOD
My darkness is an absence of light.
My darkness is an absence of light.
THE 21-DAY CONSCIOUSNESS CLEANSE
What is the condition of your flame right now? It is healing, after a somewhat negative day at work. I have spent some time with my daughter, taken a refreshing nap and enjoyed some time away from the rigors and stresses of the world.
On a scale of 1-10, where would you rate it? Right now, I would rate it around 7. Earlier, it was down to 3-4.
Where would you like it to be at the end of the day? By time I go to bed, I would like it to be at 8-9.
What is your intention of the day? What intention can you create to strengthen and fuel your flame? Reflect on the questions I am faced with and attempt to let them be, knowing that they will dissipate on their own.
What is the primary feeling you want to generate from your intention? In the end, I want to feel no shame or guilt for past decisions and actions that I may have made. I know this may take time, but I want to be free of the shackles of negative feelings. I know that I can accomplish this through my belief in God and my belief in Christ.
What will you need to do to insure that your intention becomes a reality? The first thing to do is create this journal entry. By doing so, I will get these things from my inner being on to paper. From there, I must remind myself that I am just an observer and not harbor any negative feelings whatsoever.
What will you have to give up - a thought, belief or behavior - to ensure that you fulfill your intention for today? For the most part, I have accepted the belief that we are all imperfect beings and that we all have burdens of our own. Knowing this, I know that I am no different than most people. When I was a teen, I used to beat myself up with guilt, thinking that I was the only one in the world doing things that I had been told were "immoral", only to find out as an adult that most people I know did the same thing. I often reflect as to how my life may have been different if I hadn't convinced myself that I was "broken" and a horrible human being. It was devastating to my feelings of self worth and probably held me back from reaching my greatest potential. Today, I need to just remind myself that we each have our own burdens and trials that we deal with. Knowing this, it makes it easier for me to not become too emotionally burdened by my past actions.
What healing mantra - what sentence or phrase - can you repeat to yourself throughout the day to soothe your soul and manifest your intention? John 3:16
How many times throughout the day do you need to hear this? As often as needed.
What is the condition of your flame right now? It is healing, after a somewhat negative day at work. I have spent some time with my daughter, taken a refreshing nap and enjoyed some time away from the rigors and stresses of the world.
On a scale of 1-10, where would you rate it? Right now, I would rate it around 7. Earlier, it was down to 3-4.
Where would you like it to be at the end of the day? By time I go to bed, I would like it to be at 8-9.
What is your intention of the day? What intention can you create to strengthen and fuel your flame? Reflect on the questions I am faced with and attempt to let them be, knowing that they will dissipate on their own.
What is the primary feeling you want to generate from your intention? In the end, I want to feel no shame or guilt for past decisions and actions that I may have made. I know this may take time, but I want to be free of the shackles of negative feelings. I know that I can accomplish this through my belief in God and my belief in Christ.
What will you need to do to insure that your intention becomes a reality? The first thing to do is create this journal entry. By doing so, I will get these things from my inner being on to paper. From there, I must remind myself that I am just an observer and not harbor any negative feelings whatsoever.
What will you have to give up - a thought, belief or behavior - to ensure that you fulfill your intention for today? For the most part, I have accepted the belief that we are all imperfect beings and that we all have burdens of our own. Knowing this, I know that I am no different than most people. When I was a teen, I used to beat myself up with guilt, thinking that I was the only one in the world doing things that I had been told were "immoral", only to find out as an adult that most people I know did the same thing. I often reflect as to how my life may have been different if I hadn't convinced myself that I was "broken" and a horrible human being. It was devastating to my feelings of self worth and probably held me back from reaching my greatest potential. Today, I need to just remind myself that we each have our own burdens and trials that we deal with. Knowing this, it makes it easier for me to not become too emotionally burdened by my past actions.
What healing mantra - what sentence or phrase - can you repeat to yourself throughout the day to soothe your soul and manifest your intention? John 3:16
How many times throughout the day do you need to hear this? As often as needed.
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